where butter can fly...

my dear cesim... results for the third last round... and we are still on the decline... this is really a stupid game... and basically the trial round doesnt help at all... if u bang rite... den u will first... if u r unlucky... like us... no strategies will work... and this is so demoralising... it is in a mess rite now... i dunno wat we r doing... which direction should we proceed on... LOlz... it is suppose to be a game... but not fun at all... only 2 subject this sem... yet... it is like tt... not meaningful at all... drawing shoes, watching tv, sleeping are full time... studying is part time... haha

Since last week... have this acute pain around my the middle of the ribcage... isit the gastric area... den the shifted to the heart area... definitely not the breast... it is the heart!... keep feeling that smth got stucked there... and it really hurts when i breathe, eat and especially drink... i dont think it is gastric pain... cos i m quite sure i haf been eating quite rite recently... suddenli fear that i will contract some kind of disease... cos nobody seems to know what is it and how to cure it... went to our family doctor wif my parents since they are going to test their blood... i think the doctor also dunno wat is it.. she gave me some gastric medicine... tho i dunno how is it linked to it... ate the medicine... feeling better... but still hurts when i drink hot drinks or i eat fast...

have been quarrelling with my dad recently... he is in really weird mood... as the market swings so does his mood... always feel bad after the quarrelling... but we are always fine after half a day... both of us know we dun mean it when we quarrel... but i just cant stand it and wanted to talk back lo...

been learning my oil painting for a year plus le... it is ex... but it is my dad that have been supporting me financially... am glad that my teacher invited me to a tea session... a critique session actualli... never been to one before... but i guess it will be enriching... too bad it clashed wif my school cirriculum... falls on tuesday... which is the only day i haf to attend school this week... my mum have been asking when i m stopping my lesson... reluctant to stop... but i will have to... nothing is forever... shall move on to smth else that i have always wanted to do... knitting maybe... haha...