where butter can fly...

terrible terrible feeling... k... mayb i realli look as if i njoi going to school... but if they r really my close kin... they should how i will b like when i m realli happy rite... they just dunno... and while i m realli struggling hard now... they dun understand... they treat it like studying should not b my priority... i should actualli help my bro wif his sch work first den to do my own work... even if i haf something urgent to do... helping my bro seems to b the rite thing tt i must do.. if not the whole house is like treating me like a selfish rat... n den i haf to save electricity.... sometimes i realli dun feel like using the com... but i haf no choice... almost everything is inside... and i cant use the bright lights.. i must use the 2 spot light tt shine by the side and not the one tt haf 3 spotlight tt is just above... just bcos i haf to save the electricity of tt one bulb... and den i when i sae my eyes will hurt if there is not enuff light... he sae it wont... it is my eyes le.. not his... so... i being left alone in the living room wif just two spot light... can u imagine how miserable is it... i realli feel tired... i feel myself dyeing soon.. soon... but eveybodi think i m toking crap... but i m really tired now... sooner or later i haf to die rite... when will i die?...