where butter can fly...

i gave joanie the present!... dunno y feel quite happy after that... though it's true that we r not tt close as compared to our childhood daes... but i m definitely honoured n blessed we r meant to b cousins... she makes her life interesting n i just hope that my life can be half as interesting as hers... i sincerely hope that she is happy with her life! tomorrow going home again... wednesdae having my fourth driving lesson... it has been 2 wks since i last drove... eeeeeeeee...... dunno wat'll happen... hehe. i've got another presentation AGAIN!!!.... n CAN SOMEONE PLS TELL ME WAT'S A TERM PAPER!!! ARGHHHHH..... was talking to a friend via msn just now... someone who really trust god... n i thot it was quite amazing. 'cos i didn't know that we can actualli communicate to god... y didn't my christian friends tell me dat?... Anyway, i find her a very nice ger. All that i know is that i 'll very much like to have a friend like her... It's just so natural talking to her... i juz tell her everything... everything! She told me god will only give me the best... i believe her. But... i m not a christian... 'll he still treat me same? =P

the first presentation and i think we are already not doing very well... It's like so last min n i hate last min work. well.... there's no one to blame rite... arghhh.... quickly over... i think i get more "fan" when i c the slides... tmr quickly come... i want to go home!!!....

It's past midnight now...and why m i still awake?.... i feel quite lost... i dun think i m catching up with all my work... n i feel i m njoing my life too much... but wat haf i enjoyed?... i m not contented.. not contented with my life... seeking perfection... i hope that i can know all my work.. all my tutorial qns... understand all my lecture... n consistently do my readings, do exercise... swimming once a week... i hope that i have time to make some small things for all my friends, also hope that every1 ard me will like to haf me ard,... i hope that i m alwaz loved n missed... i hope that i can spend my money wisely. I hope that i'll never do anything wrong to upset anyone again... and hope that my parents can support me n be proud of my achievements... i hope that i can stop wasting time... i hope that from tomorrow onwards i can be what i used to be... be myself! i want to wake up with a smile... and end my day with one too!... wat's wrong with me...

it's a sunday... and i did a very "interesting" thing... garung guni!!!... collect old newspaper... hehe.... i really feel super tired and stinko... it's not like i never collect newspaper before... i've did it many times during sec sch. Well... the main difference this time is that we are so "fortunate" to be able to visit the dumping ground... (a place where they weigh our collection n convert them into money).This is my first time there and it is like an excursion. haha...... It's really hard earned money ya... heez... By the time i reach home, it's already 8... the lorry uncle send me home. I thought it was very nice of him to send us home... but when i told my parents about it, they like make a big fuss... (dangerous la... blah blah blah...) Although it's really kinda tedious... but i think i had quite a happy time... at least i m laughing most of the time... The pple in rotaract are very "guai" one... like me... hehe... friendly and i find it easy to blend in and make friends with them even though we seldom meet up... more or less they are pple with a kind heart ba... if not they wouldn't have join in the first place. Here goes my beautiful sunday... =P...

ah gong is in hospital... this is really something big.... He fell... Blood clog outside the brain... depressing on his brain nerves... causing him to be half-paralysed... Yesterday nite... weipeng's dad came to fetch the 3 of us from sch to the hospital. At first, i only thot that ah gong's just doing a thorough check-up. When i reach there, i practically saw the whole family there... (a shoking number of pple). It is only by then then i sense something serious. I can see that everyone seems quite worried, especially my grandma and my fifth uncle. ok... so ah gong went in to the operation room... n everyone waited outside. everybody seems to b talking to everybody... like long time no c like dat. i was thinking since when did this scene appear in the family. It's nice to c everyone together... but hopefully next time it can b bcos of some joyous occasion. Ah gong's is safe now... hope that he can recover fast and stay strong.

Another banner to paint... everyone seems to b grumbling... me too... my mum asked me that day... " why pple ask u to design u design, don't know how to reject is it?".... blah blah... well... maybe it's not my part anymore for this extra banner... but truefully i don't mind helping... tho pple may forget your help very quickly... but it only matters that they once appreciated my help... and i have been useful. They may be using me, praising me just bcos they are lazy to come up with their own design... or they may used to it le... relying. All in all... i feel happy now... happy that i did help. Also, i m thankful to meet this group of joyful seniors. They are really fun loving and their laughter is really contagious! I may not be staying in hall next new sem... but i m really glad that i m given the chance to know them... n be part of their circle of friends.

It's thursday today. I went to my first official tutorial lesson and met all my new friends. Not as bad as I thought. The people seems rather friendly. I made a new friend, Cheryl. A very sweet looking girl, very fair... Wasn't really paying attention the whole time. My flu is getting worse. This is really bad; with another day to go... 8.30 lesson... and then I am all alone now in my simple n rather empty room, eating porridge... What a poor girl! =P heez... I am looking forward to go home tomorrow. Sad to think that way cos i always wanted to b completely independent but i just can't. Haha. This is me ba, i guess... the homely girl.

finalli... i took my first practical lessn todae!... hehe... haf been like planning to learn for years~...
well... tho i took sometime to get used n to drive the car in the middle of the road... it was still fUN!... everythg went quite smoothly la...
hm... first lessn... wonder when will i get my licence...

Sitting beside my dad now... watching teletext... telling me about his work... about the shares he had bought...
it is very nice hearing him telling me all dat stuff... tho i dunn realli understd everything he had bought... smiling n happy~...

School has juz started for this sem... the good news is.... my timetable iz a complete match one wif jean's... quite heng (i suppose). Dunno y... this sem seems different... maybe i dun feel so confused n worried about everything n everything... i like being wif leepeng, mandy, jean n mag... they r nice pple! Not sae new frens not nice la... but den i dun realli noe em dat well yet...the trust iz not dere as much la... Friendship takes time to develop... n i hope i can make a few worthy friends around...

Everything seems right... n i n definitely hopeful of my future uni life .(at least now i feel dat way.)