where butter can fly...

third day of cny... wat is the plan?... go grandma house... i haf spent my first 2 days at ah ma's place... as usual ah ma cooked our favourite mee siam on the second day... somehow i really miss her and the food she cooked... ever since i moved... i only get to go down every saturday... this had made us distant... and i knew that all along... but den i cant do anything.... school is so far... i stay so far... there is so much things to do... though it will b unfair to prioritise things before family and visiting ah ma... but that's reality...

ah ma told me on new year's eve... the morning we r pray to our ancestors at koon seng rd... that house is oreadi disastrous... house of pigeons... invaded by termites... my ah ma got hit by a wooden door on her left side of her face and ear... we were all so worried that something may happen to her... cos her left ear was bleeding... but luckily it is only abrasion... i hope so... she kept saying she is ok... was really scared cos grandfather and great grandma left us bcos they both hit on smth... as my grandma place all the utensils and dishes on the table... she told me... "you have the learn, in case i m not around." I was sad... y did she say that... this really make me fear more...

2 days at ah ma house may seem boring... but den it is somehow meaningful to me this year... as i meet my relatives... probably those that i only see once a year... i realised... things are alreadi different... pple got old... pple got sick... somehow as i talk to some of them i feel weird...
this new year... i feel empathetic... i feel blessed... i wish everyone around me to stay healthy... i wish them to be happy...

yea... yeayea.... i feel so lax... hm... but i should not... there is still alot of things to do actualli... quite a couple of things to hand up after the short break...
tmr 2 hrs of lect... then must go jurong point to ask the person wat's wrong with the watch...... must b really diao!... i bought a watch for joanie... quite ex... den we checked thoroughly for scratches and everything... but i forgot to check if it is working.... haha... and it turns out tt it is not working!!!! wat a great job....
den todae is the deadline for PA phase 1 selection... my final decision... pwc and citibank... not going to care le... initially was really thinking of jp morgan...but its peresquisite is really high standard i think... so in the end i just leave my choice as it is...
i m tired... good nite...

have u ever feel that at times... u may have put in effort to do smth... but den others just dun seems to appreciate it... i dun expect pple to like and agree with wateva i have done... but i think i should at least get some feedback... whether it is good or not... whether they r going to use it or not... they may think tt it is actually nothing at all... to me... i really put in effort to do... cos i dun want to be the burden of the group... i just dislike the way human beings do things sometime... get lost...
i almost lost phone today again... i think it just somehow drop out from my bag during lecture... but luckily la... the person who pick it up has the intent to return to me... i got it back eventually...
went for oil painting after lecture... hm... took a while to complete the yellow flower... didnt even realise it is over the time le... rather satisfied altho it could have been beta if i haf more time... hehe...
busy weekend cuming up... tho it will b enriching however, sometimes i get sick of it... life still goes on no matter wat happens... and i can choose to be happy... i can (psycho me...)

quite piss off recently.... and yet bcos it is for nothing... i cant vent it on anyone... so most of the time when i got the "pisssssss" feeling... i just try to keep my mouth shut...

ming yi fa shi... really admire him...
the show makes me want to earn alot alot money and donate all...
really touch...

todae is a rainy day... haf been raining since i woke up till now... went for garung guni dis morning... supposedly to meet at 8.30 but den we ended up starting only at around 10... think 10 is a logical time ba... it will b too early to go around knocking pple's door at 8+ ba... haha...
we were on pause after the 5th block... and it is raining even heavier... we had lunch and we waited... but the sky show no mercy at all... so... dcided to leave... haha.. so mei yi qi rite...
feel a bit guilty only la... i guess tt they wun continue also ba... yupz.. anewae... i rushed home to finish my presentation tt i haf to do tmr... hm... i hope it is not too "shui bian"... but i really dunno wat to put in... den there is risk management... thot i will like to do company law first... but seems like risk mgmt come first now.. since i got seminar tmr... this sem risk mgmt will b the more time consuming core i guess...

well... another day pass like tt... and weekend's over just like tt... there is just no time... but i like it this way...tho there is a lot of things to do...many pple to meet... there is alwas a spirit within tt want to keep going...

had a bathe... but haf not washed my hair... yuckee rite... can still smell the bbq...but den it is really too late le... cos tmr haf garung guni... must as well perspire le den wash together rite... ha...
went for sec sch 4 grace gathering.... at marina bay.... hm... only 4 gers went... and the guys outnumber us by really alot.... first time... tt guys seem more enthu than us... haha... hm... didnt really get to tok to every1... was sitting beside cheng xi all the while... haha... really jovial guy... lamer... havent stop luffing since he came... but i feel lucky sitting bside him... cos the other table like a bit cold... got ice havent break... hm... and most of the guys left b4 10... like just eaten full... den they want to hurry off... is there soccer tonite?... hm~ or r they really bored... while in the end our table stayed for a while.. eat ice cream... continue to tok lame... ha...

on my way home... i saw someone faint...
was shocked!... the ger just walk two step into the mrt... den she fell flat on the face... for a second or two... nobody did anything... i think everyone is just stunned... den pple around recover... den quickly help the ger up... i was quite relief to see tt she is still conscious... generally... i think singaporeans are still helpful... hm... and i can c tt pple around r not looking bcos they r kaypo or wat... they r really concern... so m i... heez... but it is just tt u c tt she already got helped... so i wun keep looking at her... or initiate to help le... if not she will feel central of attention rite...

this morning i went to hi's first session... it was quite tough... hm... i m really wondering how i can communicate with him... can c how worry the mother was... in my heart... i want to assure her tt i want give her all the help she need... but den i cant be tt sure myself now... i feel helpless... but i will still try my best to help no matter wat... yupz.. aza aza~... hm... tmr is the garung guni and i will c the hi pple again... hehe... todae finally i feel a bit of bond between us... the clementi pple... hee... at least there is a few joker... and everyone is as nice as i thought... i like them!... hm... there is another event cuming up... S.I.G.N '06... smth like amazing race in sentosa... currently i put my name in la... but not very sure if i will back out... hehe... hope it will b fun...

still haf my monday presentation to do...~.. i m dead...

first week of school... only went to 2 tutorial and 2 lecture so far... everything seems still ok... but i haven do the presentation that i must present on mon! so wat m i doing online... msning.. ha... k... i m going to tok abt the biz topic "casino"... i dunno y i chose tt in the first place... but since i m oreadi decided on it den i will do it ya... it will still b the same regardless of the topic i guess.

risk mgmt, marketing, company law n biz comm... well well well... aza aza fighting!!!... just do ur best!
2nd hand text r so hard to get... n their edition keep changing... i finally gave up... and bought first hand instead... i feel broke... and i think i m...

libing is back... but i will only c her like once a week... during marketing lecture... no much change in her... still look the same... hm... mayb when she tok got tt kind of slang... cool~~... lolz..
hm... ya.. i wish her good luck dis sem...

my mum cleared my wardrobe... and i feel that i haf no clothes to wear... and she keep constantly reminding me tt i haf alot of clothes... not supposed to buy anymore... but how can it be... i just haf to buy... tmr! haha.... bugis here i cum~...

going to meet 4 grace pple tmr... i wonder how mani will turn up... i haf learnt my lesson... never be the organiser again... ha... so... i will nv initiate it... will c how tmr ba...

hm... went blading todae... fell n fell... fun!... but also painful... was feeling very bad this afternn... got sick n everthing... so i slept all they way after i finally got back to ah ma house... hm... and then i took the panadol just now... n i bcum so awake now...
i thot i shall learn roller blading well... tho todae really fell alot of times n feel demoralised... but if i can master it well the first time... den it will b too super le rite... yaya.. i m consoling myself.... todae first dae of 2006... n i m learning a new thing... a good start rite!

new year... new beginning... no matter wat happens in the past it is all in the past le... alwas look forward... i just hope i alwas keep an upright attitude.. cos looking back on my past blog... last sem dun seem so good...

joining wsc haf been rather good... making new friends... hu r mostly nice at heart... song signing was... erm... the practise was tedious... but den again...i did enjoi it sometimes...
meeting up wif old friends... doing stuff like playing badminton n roller blading.. or going to the isetan sale... i like the feeling of trying out new stuff... and doing activites together... it's nice...

aza aza fighting... must jia u for new yr!!