where butter can fly...
Wednesday, March 30
*yawn...
| hm... went to celebrate serene's 21st b'dae yesterdae and came back at about 1+... really shag... haf econ quiz tmr and i m still half way thru... hm... when can i really haf my beauty sleep... time is not enuff!!!... we went to buy serene's pressie yesterdae... wif the rotaract pple... josephine, luuhaur, allan, liang yu.... took a long time to dcide wat to buy... we bought a mini tweety bird cake... a shirt... and a red g-string... the guys idea lo.. haha... hm... looking at the gift... i thot we shoould buy smth more.. anewae... i think it's quite difficult to buy also.. so many pple... different ideas... yupz.. the party was quite fun... tho we did nothing much... just crap a lot... the guys are so crappy lo... josephine tried to introduce a "concentration" game... and the guys went diao.. haha... it was so funni... and den rotaract haf their own scandal to... really comical one.. and wif no bad intention also... think they are really a group of nice pple.. tho it's like i only meet them like thrice... haha.. hm.. not bad ya... dunno if i will b joining rotaract nxt year... ... if not...their friendship will really be short and sweet le... but tt's the way it works nowadays... where is eternal friendship?... i dunno... it's really difficult to imagine the future...even the 3 mth hols tt is cuming.. dunno how it'll b like... not say 2nd year in uni... i just hope that it can be as gd as dis year... as i m beginning to like it le... but nxt year not staying hall.. hm.. there may be lots of changes le... hm... unpredictable... dun think so much... NOw is more important ya.. yupz! i met yong han when i was in jp choosing the pressie... hm.. still tall as ever... must tilt my head quite high to see his face... haha... k... ECONS!!!.... |
Monday, March 28
SugarHoneyIceTea!
3 nicest things in life...
1) to bath
2) to sleep
3) to SugarHoneyIceTea! = SHIT!
this 3 things are really the most relax things to do... really... and dunnd to spend money also...
well... haf a hectic break.... and the good friday is not good at all... my god!... thinking of it really headache... all of the sudden, i feel that i had become the most mature member in the family... wahaha...
sigh~... pple fight, pple patch up, and then they bcum beta friends... aiyo... hm... i m really glad the big storm is finally over... and really thanx them for stop fighting... allowing me to at least able to study in peace from today onwards... also, thanx them for the treat... yummy yummy!... i really have a great time this afternn... mummy n papa... i love U!... no matter wat happen!...
i hope... after my break down, after crying... i can revive... and do even beta too... just like their relationship...
i saw a rainbow yesterdae... erm... shld i sae only 1/3 la... very nice... very happy... hope things will go on fine as i hope it will be... and i really can't wait for exam to be over... can't stand the stress... yupz... and i m really going to spend my holidae wisely this time... no more couch potato le... probabli haf to list down all the things i want to do and just do... think i will beta think after exam ba...
hm.. last week of official sch le ba i think..and dun think will have a lot of chance to stay in hall le.. sigh~... tho i'll like to go home.. but i will still miss... really... sometimes it's just so ironical... and i dunno wat i want... but going home will be great, but.... there's still alot of reason to stay in hall also... an unforgettable experience...
*yawn...~ time for me haf a gd rest... tmr wake up and study... again.
Thursday, March 24
"/ ~.> =P =O
i stained my pants... shit lo... wanna realli thanx jean for being there for me... i m really on the verge of crying le... cos it's such a "malu" situation... in the end i didn't go for the "foc" session... cannot stand la... i too dirty le... well... jean said they had fun... think they playing "gotcha" with the kid ba. :c...
toking about the subcomm appreciation nite... i saw kang jian there too... he's someone frm my class... n i only saw him yesterdae after the entire year... haha... the performance was ok lo... all singing... but it is like a very homely gathering where all the performance are homemade one... dun haf to be very professional can make it fun le... i really had a happy time... everyone was so funny...
todae is the deadline for our bsc... at the very last minute... mag told us that the pg no. must be put in the centre... PANIC!!!... hm... we needed a colour printer... and jean was thinking to go home and print... Luu haur to the rescue!... i asked for him for help... thot tt he had a printer in his room... it was really kind and trustful for him to give me his key and allow me go to his rm myself... n den... the best part is his printer ran out of ink... really unlucky rite... think anyone will sympathy with me too... *sob *sob... then... we went to use allan printer... sigh~... finally handed in le... phew~
i was told i have sleepy eyes... maybe i have... haha... dunno... but i dun want to have...
kah hon saes he is GAY... he insists... haha... well... think he's only kidding ba... but frankly speaking, he may look a litte gayish... he's too fair le la... well... we were talking to jun zhi about the gay topic... he's the "muscle man"... so he alwaz attract all those gays... it's quite interesting to hear his experience... haha...
headache... i nd panadol!!!
Rotaract - BizFin SubComm... funnie group... 'll definitely miss em...!!!
Hall 15
Wednesday, March 23
SA Vs CJ...
| sometimes there's thngs in life that we can't control... for instance, other pple's life... hm... my bro got into SA... hooray!!!... but den he is thinking of appealing back to CJ now... there is no best of 2 worlds... of cos my parents will object to his decision but in the end the life is his... and there is really nothing that we can do... to me... both are a way of life... it is just which path u choose to take... if in the end he chooses CJ... I can imagine my bro as the ang mo perk... that will secretly go pubbing and stay overnite at orchard road... hanging out with riches... buying branded... but den i can't guarantee that he won't be like dat if he get into SA. I voted for him to stay in SA... the reason simple... SA is better!... but den i may haf some prejudice against CJ ba... It's his life... and there are things that a 3rd party will not know... even if we are being brought up in the same home, have the same horoscope... i dunno if i should support him... afterall he's my bro... and i will support him no matter how about it is eventually... and i know my parents will suddenli feel a hole in the heart... and i dun want tt... we both are good...and i want them to feel proud of us oneday... and frankly speaking... i feel that my parents have high hopes on my bro more than they have on me... more gan cheong wif wateva he do an d everthg... at this present moment... the decision is still not final yet... i hope everything will go out the way it is to be... and i hope i can really support my bro final decision without any grudges of it... "No one is here by chance." You are meant to be where you are... |
Thursday, March 17
=friends of children=
| hm... just came back from "friends of children"... got the news that one of our senior is graduating... and will not be help out le... she is trained teacher... now taking her honours or master degree i think... hm.. she really has her method to teach the kids and the kids will listen tamely to whatever she sae... really impressed by her style... i really dunno how the session will be like in the future without her... like last week's session... haha... chaos!!!.... is the 17th todae... shld b less than 1 mth now.. and this morning i had my biz law tutorial... the more i went through it, the more i feel hopeless... the tutor was like late for 15 mins and then she ended like 9.30... which is only 45min of tutorial... hm... imagine i spent like half the day thinking about the the questions and then she just "chop chop" finish like dat... I M STILL LOST!!!... my cousy wanted to go eat seoul garden... probably thinking of ah gong ba... "/... it will be nice if all cousins go together... k... going to clear my tutorials asap le... haf to put words into action... if not i'll never get started... |
| k... great!...everything clash... rotaract subcom appreciation nite clash wif hall colours award stuff... which seems quite important... really dilemma one.. by right and law i should go to the hall event... but by guts feeling... i prefer to go to the rotaract event... i dunno how to choose now... it's irritating ya... alwaz like dat... |
Wednesday, March 16
weird dreams... again...
| i had dreams yesterday nite again... as usual it was weird... got a little impression... tried my best to rmember.. but still it bcum very vague now... the first one is about there's smth stuck in between my tooth... den i keep trying to pick it out... den i start to pull wif greater strength.. then after that i can taste blood in my mouth... like when i pulled the thing, my teeth is actually being forced out too... The thot of it really sucks... keep feeling that is this weird taste in my mouth... the other one is even weirder... i m sleeping on my bed... in the hall... den when i wake up... saw huan min and another guy... sitting at mandy's table chatting... huan min like bcum very pretty in the dreamz... her eyes like those in cartoon... then we started talking... smth like she is testing her bf... den she put smth under her grandma body during a funeral... then she sae like sometimes things are meant to be fated... then the nxt thing i knew is that i saw my great grandmother and my grandfather bodies on my bed... there's still another body but i cannot remember who le.... then i having a conversation with my roomie... i hope i dun scare u... then dunno what we talk about... suddenli by great grandmother's and my grandpa's legs move... they trying to stretch themselves or smth like dat... i was really scared la... getting all this weird dreams nowadays... tho they sae dreaming of our ancestors may be a good sign... but i doubt so... did i do anything in the day to make me dream like that? well... my mind is still floating around... really tired... hm.. if i couldn't get a gd sleep then i surely die... exam coming... i need to concentrate... and i nd my brain to work... |
Tuesday, March 15
what is the dream?
was so emotional yest.. forget to blog what i did... i went grocery shopping wif mandy and leepeng yest... didn't buy a lot.. but we bought a lot of drinks.. milo la... soya bean la... hehe... Actually wanted to go watch "hide and seek" but i think i really no fate with the movie... it has already stop showing le... so sad!... but now... the nxt movie that i really want to watch is "Miss Congenality!"... hehe... We went to fish and co for dinner yest... quite ex but it's like dat... really njoi the food... i think i t's really nice... Yesterday... had a very weird dream, but i couldn't rmember how it is like...i hope i can remember... must be a really sad story... didn't really take note wat time is it... when i regained conscious i was really crying... like really big tears... i went back to sleep i guess... when i woke up in the morning... was really tired... i think my mind overwork... i thot the horoscope was quite accurate... it says that on tuesday i will sense smth wrong... den on friday i 'll receive a call and be happy after tt.. well... it sort of comes true for the tuesday one ya... but this kinda of thing not true all the time.. so i also dunno if the friday one will come true or not... Then this morning.. went to manne a booth for rotaract.. nothing much to do.... nobody wanted to paint batik... was just doing sales... den the children from the chaoyang school came to perform... though it was quite a messy performance... can see that they had put in alot of effort... feel proud of them.. ithink they will feel proud of themselves too.. can see that they are really enjoying themselves... around the area where i manne my booth.. there's this dedication song booth.. luhao was incharging... dun really know who to dedicate to... haha... dedicated the song to vidal anyway... and i put anonymous... aha... hm.. not really close with the group now... but i think we'll still get together when the times come ba... den i receive this "shuang jie gun" thing.. think everyone is quite interested with it... indeed, quite a weird thing to give away as souvenir... went to weigh at home tt day... though i became 45kg again... but i dun feel so.. still feel fat... n my stomach really bloated.. so feel like burping after i have my meals... not going home todae..bcos most prob have to do accounting pjt tmr... i duno... maybe tmr i should go grandma house to have my dinner and then go home... everybody getting stress i guess.. exam coming in 1 mths time... well... i have no planning yet... so feel very lost... have been thinking if i should continue to stay... thinking about the good points and bad points... and my final decision is... i will move out for the time being.. and think about it over the hols.. and the thing about ge... really bothering me.. hoping i can clear as much as possible... but dun think i got my course anyway... going to have a hot bathe and den get to WORK... work... work... |
Monday, March 14
i miss grandpa...
maybe sometimes he is back to see us... just hope that he give some hint... at least we can feel he's still with us... though in another world...
Wednesday, March 9
| todae mandy went home... so i went to "da bao" back to room... since luhao and allan all not free... *sob... of all dae they todae not free.. so i thot i can go "dabao "quickly and get back to my rm... on my way back... someone poke from behind... turn...n i saw... sigh!~... hm... it's this guy living in hall too... live on the very first level.. dun really noe him well.. but well... so i walk wif him back to hall... it's such a looooooooooooonnnnnng walk... i know i m really bad... but dun like to talk to him, cos there's nothing to talk about.. it's kinda of weird... to me... he's just someone... an acquaintance... not say i anti-social la.... but realli scared to c him too... i even blocked him in msn... sigh~... I dun think he sense anything wrong... or just act blur... i think i m quite obvious... cos i try to keep my mouth shut... i m really sorry... but it's just so unnatural even to talk not sae becum friends le.. and then again... he'll be at the bus stop tmr... i just hope maybe i miss the bus... but den hor... there's no need me to do these dumb things to avoid one la... just act normal rite... k... still no news of my wallet... well, i dun expect anything also la... haha... i mean like quite alot money inside... and such a cute wallet.. anybody pick up will want it guess... anyway went to apply for atm this afternn... but my wallet is still quite empty leh... luhao came to talk to me just nw... very funny guy... he brought a whole bottle of coke for us... he's really talkative la.. feel that we have a lot in common... so blur and so kind... haha...bhb rite but it's true!.. we r both cancerian... and we r all clumsy... haha... nice to bully also... i m still angry with my bro... only know how to make pple worry only... be more sensible!!!... thinking of whether i shld carry on staying in hall or go home... sigh~ tmr will be thursday... and i'll b happy again... cos sn it'll b friday!.... and we going FOC tmr... guixiong said that he'll like to join us... actualli i just said that if he like den he can join nxt time... i think he misinterprete me... haha... dun think he can come la... cos he not ntu student haha... but not very good to tell him straight so i say i ask my senior first... heez... paiseh... okie... yawn*.... |
16 AU... arghhhh!
Tuesday, March 8
bAd
And the worse thing is tt i cannot even remember if my i/c is inside... den when i called back home, I got a scolding from my dad... so malu to cry... but i try very hard to control le...
I am such a blur girl... and sometimes really blur until very irritating. In the past... there's alwaz this group of fren that had tolerated my blurness.. alwaz helping me take wat i left behind... if not i will have lost my wallet or water bottle a lot of times le. This time, i really lost my wallet... and i guess it's not a prank (not this time)...
what is "extra'?... keep hearing my bro saying that word... i feel that he really change alot... ultra materialistic and so unoriginal... he is not he... everything tt he do is to feel accepted. Neither does he knows tt friends tt doesn't except you for who you are all fair weathered friend. Ok lo... stick with your friends... i m really angry with him... cos he dun seem to appreciate things that my parents have done... taking everything for granted... stupid childish...PIG!!!
PhObiA...
| hm... really feel tt i haf a kind of stupid phobia.... i m scared of pple treating me too nice... hm... it alwaz gives off the wrong signal and i m really scareded. Maybe tt's the reason why i m still single todae... when a friendship between me and a guy get too close... i just feel scared.... but alwaz pretend to act normal... haha... arghh... act blur... |
Monday, March 7
hm... itz a new wk again... well... over the weekend nothing much had happened... went to both grandma's house ya... one is tt i'll go every saturdae and the other one iz i haf been going everytime wheneva i m free... well... since my grandpa past away... I've never seen my grandma open herself up... i think she's still upset which i can understand why as it is more than 50 yrs of love they have... finally... she agreed to go out for lunch and also to sent one of my distant relatives off. we went to one of my grandpa's favourite restaurant... hm... i guess everyone knew it but none of us say it out... so as to avoid the sadness ya... As my grandma is a pet lover... we brought her to this pet shop... the dogs there are sooooo cute... It is like a shopping centre for the dogs... they sell their food, clothes there and even have their very own salon... hm... i really like the place... n i think my grandma likes it too!... heee... then we set off to parkway... i have been to parkway 2 days in a row... so many pple there and there is so many of us. Within an hr... haha... we left the place and head to the airport. at the end of the day, we went back to my grandma house... it was such a happy day... we were all sitting in the living room or strolling around the house... then... there is this unexpected accident just right outside our house... it just happens that most of us were around and saw the entire happenings... being "kaypo"...we stayed in the garden to hear how the 2 drivers negotiate. In the midst of negotiating, one of them suddenly said... "I've got witnesses" and turned to look at us... and everyone's very first reaction was... stunned and a 180 degree turn... haha... k... maybe not bery funny... but it's really funny... =p all the same pattern... I have been eyeing on cars ever since i started to learn driving... i think i m really slow... it's like about 3 mths le... and i m still on my 5th lesson... hm... i really wonder when i will finally get my license... n i just hope that i won't give up halfway. haf u ever been in a secret relationship... trying very hard not to let anyone know.... haha... this very thing happens to my dear fren... and i think it's very funny. Holding hands, sharing their very romantic moment alone... along the road... somewhere not very near home...den there's a oncoming open air lorry... hm... i think my this friend is too engross le ba... she didn't c tt sitting behind the lorry is actually full of her family members... until one of her small cousin shouted her name unintentionally... OMG!... it has since become an open secret! Such a comical and "malu" moment... haha... |
Wednesday, March 2
toDay.!.!.!
hm... relax for a while... cs quiz finalli over... itz the last important i have to do this week i guess... yar... so now i m still relaxing... but not going to slp too late todae la... tmr got 8.30 lesson leh... well... mandy and i have watch 2 cd of the japanese show... strawberry of the shortcake (SOS)... hehe... itz quite a weird show i must say...but we still watch it anyway!...den... we went to bazaar.... hahahaha... so funni... such a joke... there'z only about 5 stores... selling some earrings, computer stuff...bla bla... not interesting one... so sian... ha... leepeng, qiu yan and me is going to watch movie on friday after our cs tutorial... aiya... long time nv watch show le ma... esp. wif qiu yan... it has been a long time since we interact le... hm... sort of miss her... but den we somehow just didn't make time to meet or wat la... my bro got back his official o'level result le... n i now i declare that he has got 12 points... dun understand y.. pple just dun ask him... but came to ask me... hm... 12 pts should b ok la... but i just hope that he can wake up a bit.. dun alwaz so childish and be more sensible... sometimes really just by seeing him make me feel irritated... had a short chat with joanie just now... haha... i m really glad we talk... it's really nice...more like close cousins now... =p... haha... it's really funni... all the best... a lot of things very funni... her friend with the high pitch voice or u can say gentle... haha... and den the insurance guy... haha received some anonymous sms lately,...mandy n i were still discussing of what "secret admirer" thing yesterday... but chey...it turns out to be my sec sch mates la... now in army...he met someone and somehow think of me... so have the urge to contact me all of the sudden.. haha... tell u hor... i really feel that my handwriting getting worse le... ugly leh... den hor... i dun feel like being called "joanna"... cos i think it's a very common name... n it is quite confusing somehow... so... call me by my chinese name, wan ting k!... hehe... and hor... i found out something while reading the cs text todae... do u noe that a wireless mouse is actually called a hamster!!!... WAH... so cute rite... haha k la... a bit sot* sot* todae... heehee... beauty slp! |
