where butter can fly...

last week of my 3 week's leave... and it is already thursday now!
arghhh! i wonder what will happen on the first day of work... will i be ignored by my manager... cos i have gone MIA for too long... sort of like thrown everything aside... (well.. i really need this tho... altho part of me blame cj for leaving me alone... we are suppose to go on a holiday... but he changed his job... hence, under probation cannot take leave...) we are planning to go on leave again in august tho... it is like 1 month away.. and the best thing is we havent even booked our air ticket, accommodation etc... i think we will not go in the end... this will be disappointing... yet again.. i m mentally prepared for it to happen... hate it!

haven seen cj for 2 day... today is the 3rd... we barely talked on tuesday cos he worked later tt day and went for a night run @ east coast.. when he knew i will be waiting for his call. wednesday... we have to decide whether to meet on wednesday and thursday... i dunno why... can't just meet on both days... (dun he miss me at all...) was really upset when he told me to meet him on thursday so that i will not trouble myself travelling (excuses...) yesterday afternoon was difficult to pass... went swimming, played wii... realised dad is watching movie online... hence, using the same website... i found the hong kong serial drama ("gong xin zi")... i m quite outdated i know... and i got hooked... watch 8 episodes in row before i knock out in front of the monitor...

i m going to meet him later... yet dunno wat time...
altho i miss him... i dun wanna meet him... i know i am a troublesome and petty gf...
well... i guess it does not matter to him if we meet at all...
yes.. i know.. bz with work.. unlike me.. take leave.. .so free..

i m upset...
and it will turn out tt i will b unreasonable in his eyes again.

i hate it.